In my life i always look myself into the mirror and tell myself how extraordinary i am.
When i was ten, i used to get punished because i didn’t do my mathematics h/w. My teacher was so disappointed with me. Let alone my parents. only to witness how i managed to score among the highest in my class in the end of the year. the improvement made me a prodigy. not to mention i used to score my English test many times too.
When i was 15, people called me genius. I scored straight A’s in my PMR although i skipped many classes for marching band practices (which my band won second place at state level competition). Admitted to one of the best school in Malaysia for SPM, Sekolah Menengah Sains Seremban (now: SMS Tunku Munawir). well it was the best SBP around. yeah, in there i’ve learnt a lot. I continued on to score for my SPM, got the National Scholarship to study in the UK.
1 or more than 1 million Malaysians every year applied for the scholarship and i was the lucky few to get it. Studying in the UK, i was involved into sooo many student activities, got into Model UN pledging the society that i was in to make a change to the world. be the only Asian in the class and yeah i was vocal too! i see myself being this one person who excels in every test or challenges given to me.
Graduated from the best high school in Malaysia, and in the UK i was graduated from the best political school in the UK. yeah pretty much awesome. Alhamdulillah.
however, all that for what? scored in PMR to get into the best boarding school, scored SPM to get the national scholarship and study in the UK, graduated with honors in UK to get a job….
at this point of my life, i can no longer feel superior. it’s God way of saying that i have no right to feel so. all human were created equal in the end. whether you’re a top scorer, or just a mediocre student back home. in the end you’ll get into the office, do some office works, makan gaji. hadap traffic. mengamuk minyak naik/LRT penuh/KTM delay, kahwin, dapat anak, you know…the usuals.
I guess the cycle or seasons of feeling extraordinary has ended.
I used to tell myself in the mirror…..
now i am going to remind myself in the mirror.
kita dah jd mcm orang lain dah
It’s not something bad, it’s not tak bersyukur, or looking down to the society tapi….don’t you think in the end of the day, it’s the same thing?
i guess, moral of the story here is…..semua sama?
ps: well however, there are several 20s people who do wonders with their life, congratulations and keep up the good work. use the opportunity given to be extraordinary. i’ll pray for you guys to keep going then 😀